I believe you know what it is I'm asking for.

Please Lord,
grant me this one wish.

Please don't let her suffer too much longer.

If you must take her from us
to be with you in that magnificent kingdom of Heaven,
help me to find a way to be more happy for her
and less sad for myself.

Please Lord,help me find the courage to deal with this, because Lord, I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that I'll be too sad to remember the happy times, and I'll only remember the sad ones.

Please help me to fend off the terrible feeling of guilt that I'm feeling inside for not being a better child.

Please help me to stop this agonizing feeling that I feel because I "would have" enjoyed things more "IF I'D ONLY KNOWN!!"
Please Lord, why couldn't I have spent more quality time?
Maybe visited more?
Spent a few more quiet moments
Given a few more hugs and kisses?
Said I love you ?

Why now Lord?
Why do happy memories feel like they're haunting me?

Happy memories are making me sad.

Will they ever be HAPPY memories again?
Or just painful reminders of
what I can't have anymore?

Am I selfish for wanting to hold on to the past?
For wanting to savor it
relive it
like an addict
looking for another high?

Would it be as good this time round?
Would it be
as happy?

I don't know Lord
But I'd love to give it just one try.

I promise you Lord, if you grant me this one wish
I'll live, laugh and love more
just because I can, and not just because I'm
supposed to.

But if you can't accomodate this wish ,
then Please, Please, Please
Oh Lord,

Take care of MY DEAR Father
when you take
MY SWEET Mother home.

IF I KNEW...

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
And pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
And call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
So I could play them back each day.

If I knew it would be the last time
I could spare an extra minute
I'd stop and say "I love you",
Instead of assuming you'd KNOW IT.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would be there to share your day,
knowing you'd have no more,
so I couldn't let this one slip away.

Yet surely there's always tomorrow
To make up for an oversight,
And we always get a second chance
To make everything just right.

There will always be another day
To say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
To say "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
And today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
And I hope I never forget...

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
Why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
You'll surely regret the way...

That you didn't take that extra time
For a smile, a hug, or a kiss
And you were too busy to grant someone,
What turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
And whisper in their ears,
Tell them how much you love them
And that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "Thanks", "I'm sorry",
"Forgive me", or "It's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes
You'll have no regrets for today.


This is why I always say I love YOU...